That you're alright...

I want to be blind,
I want to be deaf,

I dont want to come behind;

Guess it won’t hurt,

to know just this,

I won’t speak nor blurt,

Because it’s my only bliss;
On this day so bright,
Just let my heart know,
That you’re alright..

from friends to memories to friends

I lay there quiet, staring out

of the window with some doubt
the first light caressed my skin
the cold air tingled my within
like a great dam being broken apart
memories sprang not from mind but from heart
there were pictures, there was a voice,
strangely we met but it wasnt our choice,
that smile, made me almost cry,
reminded me of you when the days went by,
that voice made music in my ears,
it's void saddened the passing years,
could stare at your eyes and utter none,
they spoke of all our cazy fun,
adorable to me you always were,
thinking of that makes feelings spurr
you always knew to take out the bore
your make me warm right at the core,
i'd secretly look back to catch your glimpse,
on days of your absence it's like eclipse,
15 times i'd secretly glance,
at each and every of your sweet stance
15 minutes seemed too short,
on the 15th glance i usually got caught
suddenly you had gone away,
you left my life to my dismay,
nevertheless i had hope,
though the loss i could not cope,
the search for you never ended,
i guess my heart never surrended,
wished i could kiss your forehead and say,
'congratulations' on your wedding day,
guess time never wanted it that way,
to hell with that, cz here we are,
my crescent moon with the shining star...

I still have it in me...

I may sound like metal

but deep down I’m so brittle

Perfect I was never not

at least were you, “on the dot”?

To love truly is to be selfish

but to you it may seem childish

So if you’re not trusting me now

I ask you not why or how

Don’t create reasons to let go

Just tell me so that I can know

My life is yours to tear apart

So is my own beating heart

Is this true love I know not

I’m the one who never forgot

Hope what I gave you would miss

At least the memory of our first kiss

Be honest with your heart’s voice

Though it may not be your final choice

I’m not what you want as your guy

what’s left is to say goodbye

just know that it’s still there in me

before I die I hope you'd see

I put my hurt into words

so they may soar like free birds…


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The lost love

I thank you for that brief time

U made my heart sublime

The time i really lived my life

tryna go back is my strife

Eternal apologies for breaking trust

shattering love's delicate crust

i was young, naive and bold

it only figures when you're old

lessons learnt were etched rough

lessons taught me a lot of stuff

can never runaway from ur heart

if u do, can never restart

learnt the hard way by loosing you

lost the love given by you

all that's left is sympathy

the little caring sincerity

i'm so sorry i say again

i'm sorry to have caused you pain

what i have for you i have for none

you are simply my only one

these are words from deep within

no lies nor dare I utter a sin

through passing years i have changed

will never again stray or be deranged

converting myself into what you desire

asking a second chance from god up higher

If fate wants me to be with you

it will show me what i must do

but blurry and dark  i cannot see

to get you back I hope it shows me

whatever it commands i shall comply

awaiting you for your reply

2nd chances are few and rare

i wish you'd give me one to get there

to prove my worth and bring back

the love you lost that now i lack

I'd fall at your feet and plead

till my knees bruise and bleed

if there exists a fragment of love for me

give me the chance to be what you want me to be

if not I’ll stick around my dearest friend

till death do us apart in the end….


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Waiting for you....

monotonous in tone the sound;

to the clock that I'm bound.

time a better runner than I;

seems to be rushing past by.

waited a little longer,

but it only gets stronger.

accepting anything on me thrown;

never lessened but grown,

is the love that’s here for you;

cannot forget because I really do.

take your time to want me;

I know oneday you’ll agree.

look into my eyes and you’d find

only your reflection,  nothing else behind.

will wait, will wait forever

till one day, one day when you sever,

all barriers to take your hand;

that’s where I’ve made my stand....

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First kiss....

I have filled my heart with hate

no thought or belief in fate

yet, there remains an empty space

unquenched by nobody else's grace

staring at the window open wide

imagining you at my side

how you came in I know not

unthinkable is a sudden stop

the memory to forget I’ve never dared

is the first kiss we ever shared

the most wonderful moment

that killed my heart’s dormant

please bear this weird connection

just my way of showing affection

                                                   will never get into your heart

                                                   but from my mind you’ll never depart

if i could turn into dust
i'd be sand at your feet blown by gust
if i could turn into air
i'd be the breeze that brush your hair
if  i could turn into light
i'd be the star you'd gaze at night
i'f  could turn into fire
i'd be the warmth that sparks desire
just so that i am never away
from the fragrance of your love baby

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